Bad Conscience was waiting up for me last night to have a chat when I came home from sports. Nobody else was around. Seeing Bad Conscience is never a good sign. He was blobbing out on the sofa with his bloated tummy, burping away. Generally he doesn’t say much. You have to start the conversation, otherwise it is just an awkward situation. He sits in one corner regurgitating. You hardly see him, but he makes sure his presence is felt.
“So what’s up?” I tried to be cheerful, knowing very well he had a major concern and I could expect some unpleasant truth.
“You behaved like a girl today” he said and shook his head “Like a girl, girl, a childish girl”
“What do you mean?” I replied, as I really didn’t know what he was trying to say to me.
“You tried to change our behaviour – all the Dede’s behaviour”
“No I didn’t”
“Yes, you did…you did….you are not happy with us, so you want to change us to conform with your worldview.”
“No I don’t”
“Yes you do, you want us to be more intellectual. You said so!”
“Maybe a little” No point denying it, he knows anyway. But once Bad Conscience gets a little foothold by you admitting he is sort of right he goes off like a rocket…
“When will you learn that not everybody can be everything to you! It is not going to happen, Missy! If you need to discuss art, don’t go to Pig, see L’artiste or make a new Art Critique… You can’t make us all intellectuals. Forget it! If we can’t be who we are, we will disintegrate. There will be nothing left of us. pfffffffff” He made the sound of a deflating balloon.
“But…”
“Pffffffff”
“But…”
“Pffffff”
At this stage I gave up. I know him too well. He said his piece and left me to it. No more discussion!
dedepuppets 
I demand apology!!!!
Else I would call the dedes for a ‘Dharna’ in the Indian Style!
:-)
You have to explain what would be involved in a ‘Dharna’. So that I know what to face :)
Well I must say, to explain what is dharna, the best way is to experience it (and take my word for it; it is not a pleasant experience).
But to get a feel of it, see
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/dharna
Hi Dietlind!
I read your post with great pleasure this morning. And there is one question: what do you really exspect from your Dedes?
Greetings Juergen
That is a good question, Jürgen, which I can not answer entirely.
I don’t have a big ‘Master plan’ These puppets have taken the lead and I just more or less follow. In the long run of course, I would like them to look after me. But we are still growing together and are exploring our possibilities. I have learned not to expect too much… then anything can happen :)
Cheers Dietlind
Hallo Dietlind!
Prozesse sind gut, prozesshaftes Vorgehen ist eigentlich immer erfolgreich und kommt zu Ergebnissen, wenn man nicht die Nerven verliert – so ist jedenfalls meine Erfahrung. Ich finde Deinen Ansatz mehr als spannend.
Alles Gute
Juergen
Jetzt muss ich doch nachfragen, was Du genau unter Prozess verstehst. Ich bin schon zu lange aus D-Land weg. Planung?
D
Prozesshafte Vorgehen meint für mich, dass ich die Bedingungen meines Arbeitsfeldes so ungefähr kenne, auch grob weiß, wo ich hin will, aber ich überlasse mich dem Prozess, beobachte, wie sich die Dinge entwickeln, reflektiere, frage nach, hole mir Rat, verändere, vertraue auf die Zeit, und irgendwann merke ich, das ich am Ziel bin oder die Ergebnisse habe, die mir genügen. Ein planvolles Vorgehen ist das nicht. Und man muss Vertrauen in sich selbst haben, die Ruhe bewahren. Bei einem solchen Vorgehen bleibt vieles experimentiell.
LG Juergen
Okay, dann haben wir den gleichen Ansatz. Außer daß bei mir in der ersten Instanz viel auf Zufall beruht und daß ich am Ende nie irgendwo ankomme, was ich aber auch eigentlich nicht will.